Have you ever seen the game Bonkers from the Price is Right? I feel like I am playing this game right now, but instead of playing to win a brand new television, I am playing to find the right path for our family. It feels like Mike and I are running around trying to find the perfect match for our future, and as we search to make the right choices, we are constantly met with a loud "Buzzzzzz", as if to tell us we are close, but not quite there. We choose a path that we think is right for us and we think we are going in the right direction, only to have it not work out, and then we have to start all over again. I know eventually we will have the right combination and we will align our plans with the Lords will. That in time we will finally hear that lovely ringing bell telling us we made the right choice, and we can continue to move forward. Because even though there has been a sense of us wandering around (or running around like chickens with or heads cut off) I have constantly been comforted by the feeling that there is something out there for us and that everything will work out the way is is supposed to , but for now, I am going bonkers trying to figure it all out!
Check out this talk from Elder Bednar. He was the president of BYUI when I attended and I have always loved to hear him speak. This talk has helped me during this time of transition and totally applies to my feelings of going "bonkers".